Crow’s Nest

From inside the castle walls, it’s quiet. Plush carpet muffles the hallways. The walls are thick, overstuffed with insulation. The occasional ding of elevators is all that can be heard.

It is peaceful.

There are no windows in the hallways, either, which makes me feel strange and even a little claustrophobic as I walk through the halls alone. Simple, sleek lamps light the way. There are rows of doors unevenly spaced along the corridors. They are tall, nine feet tall, and painted brown, each framed by elegant white moldings. On one side, the doors are marked with even numbers. On the other side, the doors are marked with odd numbers. The odd numbers skip 13.

Though I can’t see the sun, I know it’s setting. My stomach tells me it’s setting. I’m on an errand, though, and I don’t want to stop and go home until I’ve finished. It’s an easy enough errand: check on a room to see if it’s ready to show future residents. The queen of this castle gave me this errand herself with a wink.

“Good evening!” calls a cheerful Canadian voice behind me. Because in this cheerful castle, passing in the hall without eye contact or a verbal greeting is unthinkable. I turn to see John and his wife May behind me in the hallway. They are coming in from watching the sunset on the building’s rooftop terrace. John was in the Canadian Navy and his wife was a part of the government human resources division. Both of them are old now, well past retirement age, and enjoying their lives here in this resort quality environment. There are steps are slow, and John even has a walker. But their wit is sharp, they love to laugh, and they are unfailingly kind.

“I’m going to penthouse C,” I say. “Would you like to join me?”

“What’s in the penthouse C?” John inquires briskly.

“I’m not sure. The queen said it was a very unique floor plan,” I respond. They turn to accompany me.

We continue down the hall until we get to the door marked penthouse C. I pull out my large gold master key, which, frighteningly enough, unlocks every single door in the building, and fumble with the lock. The door creaks open and I find myself in this castle’s strangest apartment yet.

It’s like stepping off into space. There are windows all around. The view is breathtaking. The sunset (which I knew was happening, but didn’t have any visual evidence for) stretches out beyond the windows and a great riot of purple and orange and red. I can see over the rooftops and turrets. And the birds! There are huge birds, crows, wheeling around the windows in an amazing aerial display. 

“I didn’t know there was a view this good in the whole castle,” I say, looking out.

“Neither did we!” says John’s wife, laughing. “We live right next door, but we don’t have anything like this!”

We stand and watch the birds a while. It’s like something out of a fantasy movie. The crows have huge wingspans and fierce eyes as they fly. They are clearly not birds to be trifled with. They don’t even trifle with each other. As we watch, when one gets too close to another, there’s a quick confrontation.

“Might feel a bit special, living up here with the birds,” John’s wife says, staring off into the horizon.

“With no one above you, this apartment would be very quiet. You could watch these birds all day, no problem,” I say.

“Quiet is all good,” says John, “but I like to have people for company too.”

“Very true,” his wife says, and laughs. “I might feel a little insane, with only birds for company. I might try flying myself.”

The birds are magnificent, stunning, extraordinary… But as we watch, they seem ever more lonely and selfish. They only seem to want to be as high as they can, and to be alone.

It is easy to aspire to the skies. To want to fly with the birds, and live in a nest as high as theirs. But I will keep my feet somewhere between the ground and these wings.

-The Dauntless Princess-

Arrival in Ottawa, Armed with a List

Heat, sweltering heat, consumed Macon, Georgia barely a few days after I arrived.  For eleven cloudless days the sun burned and sweat ran off us in rivers.  Each night I would retreat back to my castle, undress, and recover for an hour, exhaustedly drinking diet coke and eating animal crackers.

Something had to give.

And on Memorial Day, the change finally came.  Soon,  I would be away from the sweltering heat on one of my biggest adventures to date: Ottawa, Canada.

Passport!  International flight!  International phone minutes!  Customs and immigration!  So many little chores to do before departure time!  I scurried around taking care of details, time ticking by quickly.

My snail advisor and ambassador Rodger came out of his shell long enough to approve of the trip.  He remarked that the experience might improve my dreadful French pronunciation.  I told him he was probably right but not to rub it in.  He began his usual speech about warranted criticism and I quickly fed him some soft bark to distract him.

And, before I knew it, I was on my United flight to Ottawa, stewarded by a short, stout, sassy Asian-American man who danced through the safety speech and fed me two cups of coffee.  I didn’t plan to talk to anyone on the small plane, not wanting to make people feel uncomfortable in an enclosed space.  But after awhile, the lady across from me struck up a conversation.  Her name was Isabela; she had beautiful dark almond eyes, elegant close-cropped dark hair, and a soothing, melodic voice.  She was bubbling with excitement, on her way home to see a tiny, beloved nephew.  When she found I’d never been to Ottawa and would have a few weeks to explore, she tore a page out of her journal and pored over it for a few minutes, writing down the best things to do in the city.  Markets and art galleries, canals and castles… it was all there.

So, thanks to kind Isabela, I’m arriving in Canada list in hand, not even having to scout for interesting places to explore!  Ottawa is going to be amazing.  I’m so excited!  Stay tuned, because I feel there’s special adventures to come.

  (Above: Atlanta off the wing.)

  

~The Dauntless Princess~

Benefits of a Country Mile

Living in Macon, Georgia isn’t going to be what I expected. 

You may be surprised, but I don’t try to travel with a completely open mind. I’d rather have expectations, then adjust them based on what I experience. I like feeling prepared, and revising expectations gives me an opportunity to analyze where they came from in the first place so I can gain insight into how we think, me and the people around me.

When he heard I was going to Macon, the Prince’s reaction was interesting: “It’s one of the highest crime rates in the nation!” he said. That was comforting. Definitely left an impression. Other memories of South Georgia, the grit and grime of Valdosta especially, made me wonder if I was headed to a really unsafe situation. 

But Friday, as I finally turned off I-75 south of Macon, I found myself in farm country. I saw no drug deals, no suspicious-looking persons, no dirty streets or run-down buildings. My charming castle I found tucked off the main road among huge trees. The magnolias were blooming. I couldn’t hear the highway; the songbirds drowned any distant rumble with their cheerfulness. 

I quickly unpacked and settled in (finally, I’m starting to learn what I do and don’t need to travel!) From my beautiful window, I can see over the balcony to the pool below and the forest beyond that. It’s a country mile to the grocery store, McDonalds, and for that matter, anything to call civilization.

In other parts of Macon, the city definitely lives up to my expectations as a scary place. Out here in the fields, though, it’s happily nothing like I thought it would be. I’m delighted to find myself here, eating buttered bread on the balcony and enjoying the quiet, the big trees and green grass, the friendliness… all benefits of a country mile.

Bitter Stories Re-written to Become Beautiful

Back in my sophomore year of college, I took a class in creative non-fiction writing.  As we went through exercises, writing about our personal lives and our beliefs, I wanted my words to be 100% beautiful and true.  I wrote a short piece about my experience moving from the mountains of Tennessee to the deserts of Botswana, Africa and back again.  A problem arose: life isn’t always 100% beautiful, especially mine.  Fact is, I was still dealing with most of the issues and pain I’d accumulated in Botswana.  No matter what I did, in the end I was always faced with two choices: be honest and write a true, bitter ending to the story, or write a happy ending and leave my integrity at the door.  I chose to be honest.

From a critical perspective, the work was interesting but sup-par and overly metaphorical.  I’m endlessly proud of my classmates for bearing with me, and still not sure how my reputation avoided being solidified as that writer who does their creative writing on a drug high.

The class ended, but life went on, and so did my search for personal resolution… a different end to the story.  Finally, last weekend in Tennessee with my family, I stood beside the Little Doe River and reflected on how much has changed inside me since I wrote “The Rain”.  Change seems slow until you look back several years, doesn’t it?  I finally felt that I could write an honest ending to the story that wasn’t sad, or bitter, or melancholy.  Here’s the link: http://thedauntlessprincess.com/the-rain/ and I also posted it under my writings.

Time heals!  Thank God.

~The Dauntless Princess~